I have never been superstitious. My Santa was blown away and destroyed by my cousin’s sweater that I was unfortunate enough to see under that very cheap and unrealistic Santa suit he was wearing when I was about 5 years old. Then god disappeared when I asked from him to help others around me, save their life and take care of those helpless children…and yet every single time I could find that one more is gone. And then the horoscope came and went just like a buzz passing by my ear …the black cat…the horseshoe…and so on.
But then , one day, I have discovered the idea of Destiny. For a little while it look vague enough to believe inn, simple to understand… Just blame it all not on an invisible person, not on a thing , but on Destiny. I can actually admit it did help a bit , at my worst , to find an explanation for the bad, for the good…for my stupidity and insecurities. It provided the comfort I needed while being an ignorant and foolish teen, rebelling against the world . It gave me the excuses I was so badly looking for and validated my poor decisions and lack of knowledge and even the lack of interest for anything with some intellectual meaning.
Thou, in time, and with some more will and self education, with books and other things foreign to this new generation these days, I grew out of believing in this nothingness that Destiny seems to be. But the questions remain.
I does seem that some void, some “nothing”, or maybe the universal chaos, has a way to interfere were we are certain that we’ve planned perfectly, were we knew that nothing can change the outcome and yet somehow, something made it change. Something brings the luck we so badly need sometimes, and then it takes it away just as easy. Sometimes our prayers look like they’ve been answered and ,more often than we would like, they seem to be falling on nobody’s ears.
And what that might be? Destiny? Coincidence? Some sort of god..one of the many hindu ones…or maybe the Christian and Muslim one…Jesus, Buddha, Moses, Ra, …maybe some little devil just playing with his tail to draw us in his little circle of evil?
Us humans, we will probably battle these questions for as long as humankind will exist. We can not help it…The need to be cared for and protected somehow and feel special is embedded deep down in the core of our being, therefore we will always wonder who or what takes such a (in my opinion very poor, but for the sake of this post…) good care of us.
An answer that we might never get. My only hope will be to never stop looking for it. Because on the way we might just find out that, no matter how well we plan, no matter how smart we think we are or how well we can live, control and take care of our life, or our future, no matter whom do we want to love and marry or whatever deity we chose to pray to , there will always be something or somebody, that universal chaos, that dark (or white) energy, that unknown constant that makes its way into everything we do and (apparently …or so some people say ) splits everything almost in half. We get good and we get bad…we succeed and we fail, we have white and we have black, happiness and sadness, we are born and we die. Everything just seems to have its exact opposite other thing that somehow balances all we know, and does such a great job at making this short and amazing life interesting and beautiful, exciting and full of surprises.
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“Music is a moral law. It gives soul to the universe, wings to the mind, flight to the imagination, and charm and gaiety to life and to everything.”
Thank you all for your comments to my post entitled “Feelings”. It is very interesting to learn about what the abstract can bring to surface.
Have you even wondered what is the biggest number you will hear in your lifetime? Most people probably hear only about billions or , during the recent economic crisis, trillions as being the financial deficit of some country that spent way more then probably ever should. Theoretically it is possible to count to one billion, but humanly it is impossible for if you start counting today and you average a number a second, it will take you about 31 years, 251days, 7 hours, 46 minutes and 39 seconds to get to that one billion. So now imagine a trillion ?
Did it ever crossed your mind to think of a number bigger than the number of atoms forming your body, or even bigger than the visible universe? I admit that I never thought of such a number. It is way too much . Maybe if I would of been a mathematician…???!!! There actually is such a number and is 10 at the power of 100 or 1 followed by 100 zeros and it is called a GOOGOL…!!! Yes…this number was actually at the base of the name for the internet giant GOOGLE. But this is just the beginning of me trying to twist and puzzle your mind.
There is an even bigger number used in mathematics. A number so big that if you ever want to write it in standard form it would require more space than the known universe provides. And the time which would be required to write such a number will be more that the age of the universe.It is challenging for anyone’s imagination but this number exists and it is called a GOOGOLPLEX and it is 10 at the power of 10 at the power of 100 .
But I am not finished here because there is more. Probably the biggest number that is known today it is a number for which mathematicians know only its last ten digits. Nobody knows the first countless digits of this number and yet it is the biggest number ever used in a serious mathematical proof. In 1980 was even introduced in the Guiness Book of World Records. This number is called Graham’s Number and it is so big that if you can imagine a googolplex number as one digit of another googolplex number at the power of googolplex you would still not account for even one digit of the Graham’s Number. It is a bit too much for our imaginations , isn’t it? I know it is for mine. But it is interesting nevertheless.
Going trough all these numbers and forcing and stretching my imagination to try to understand them helped me see why some people can find beauty in mathematics. Galileo Galilei said that the universe has one language and that is Mathematical language. We apply mathematics every single day in everything we do for everything can be defined by mathematics. We use mathematics in visual arts like film and photography, plastic arts etc. There is even a mathematical equation for beauty called The Golden Ratio. Maybe mathematics is what is needed to understand everything !?
This child was mesmerized by the music played on an iPod that my friend had given to her while on a long train ride. I don’t believe she has seen one before or ever listed to any music on such a small and “wired” device. She was motionless for more than an hour, watching the little colored screen as the magic tunes played. I had to pull my camera out and capture that unique first in the little girl’s young life.
In the early days of photography, photographers had no choice but to shoot in black and white, as it was the only available medium. Then, in 1936, the invention of kodachrome gave colour photography to the world. But black and white photography didn’t die off, instead it flourished. Modern black and white photography at it’s best is art, and many photographers regard it as the purest form of photography.
So why does black and white photography command such acclaim? One reason is that colour is a distraction. It takes attention away from the visual building blocks of a great photo; texture, tonal contrast, shape, form and lighting. A photographer shooting in black and white has to learn how to use all these elements to create a memorable image.
Another reason is that color photography, much of it mediocre, is so abundant that black and white makes a refreshing change.
From an artistic viewpoint; color depicts reality. Black and white is an interpretation of reality.
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