“At any moment in time, we are faced with two, and only two, choices. Although circumstances may appear to present a myriad of choices, or even no choice at all, if you look deeply enough you will realize that the basic choice is always there. We may choose the path of Love or the path of Fear.
So why do we often opt for fear? Because from the Fear’s standpoint, love can be terrifying. Love requires that we give up control. Fear allows us to seemingly maintain a certain degree of control. Love can make us vulnerable, or so we think. Fear allows us to keep the illusion that, by maintaining vigilance, we can logically determine the best course of action, and protect ourselves, if necessary.
Choosing Love means that we have to “expose” ourselves, including what we perceive as our weaknesses and, therefore, open ourselves up to possible manipulation and pain. Most of us have painful memories of, after opening ourselves up to Love, being hurt and/or disappointed by those we trusted most. When we are hurt and manipulated by those we love, our trust is shattered. We feel violated. The fear then leads to anger. We swear we will never allow ourselves to be so vulnerable again. We chastise ourselves for being so “stupid” as to trust in the first place. And so the Fear has the ammunition it needs to get us to begin building “walls” which we think will protect us from future pain. What the Fear doesn’t tell us is that, by building these walls, we prevent ourselves from receiving the love we truly want and deserve. That’s why, after a time of recovery, we usually decide to again “take a chance” on love. However, the Fear is not about to give up without a fight. Therefore, although we think we are opening up to Love again, we withhold a little of the trust that we had given so freely before. Then, if we get hurt again, we retreat even more firmly into the Ego’s world of fear and control. And so a vicious cycle is set into motion.
Because the force of Love is so powerful, after a time, we again realize that we cannot live without it and decide (again) to “take a chance”. The Fear, remembering the hurt from before, wages an all out war against Love. It will do everything in its power to keep the “protective walls” in place. In fact, it will do everything possible to fortify them. That includes “sabotaging” the new relationship by bringing up fears from the past in order to poison the new relationship and show you that it knows what is best for you. Protection at all costs. What the Fear won’t tell you, of course, is that this is the way it maintains its control over you. In fact, this is the way it maintains its existence. The Fear realizes that without its control there is no reason for you to need it. Love can supply all your needs. Hence, if you allow LOVE to guide you totally, there is no need for Fear. So, in truth, the Fear is fighting for its very life. And it can be utterly ruthless in its battle to survive. But do not think that, upon realizing this, you must now wage an all-out war against the Fear. First of all, it is a war you cannot win because you would be fighting it on the Fear’s turf, and on the Fear’s terms, so to speak.The Fear wants you to stay away from LOVE. It actually is trying to help you by protecting you from additional pain and suffering. However, it is also protecting itself, protecting its own existence, and it will fight for its survival in any way it can – even if that means hurting you in the process. So please don’t hate the Fear. Just realize that this is why we build and fortify the “walls” that are meant to keep us safe. And realize that, only by letting down the walls, can LOVE fully enter our consciousness.“
I captured this image during a photo project I was working on in a cement factory. I was blown away by the beauty of the light coming trough those dirty and dusty ceiling windows . Just imagine I was up to my knees in dust and I was doing my best to keep it away from my equipment when I got stunned by this view. I tried to capture an image that can describe what I felt. Hope you enjoy it.
As I have mentioned before, I was really decided to give it another try at these series of photos using engine oil. I brought in my home makeshift “studio” some oil borrowed from my cousin’s trunk and started setting up the shoot. While in my previous 2 experiences with oil I had no problem using cold water, I knew that with engine oil that situation would change. The water temperature will influence how this oil will react. So , first, on the cold water…took couple of shots and then observed that the oil has thickened and started to look very murky, like some dirty water. It was very disappointing to see that I just couldn’t take any decent shot and it was nothing I can do to change that.
So had to wait around for a bit , just enough for the water to get to room temperature. Now , the warmer it gets, the thinner my oil would get and I was excited that I might just have found the best oil to give me this Multiverse , even better than the first one. I really thought that because of the color of this oil, it’s viscosity, I would get the best shots in this series. So I got everything set again, played around with a colors a bit more and started shooting. After maybe around 50 shots and half an hour of trying to make it work , It just didn’t work. There was nothing I could do to make it work. It was just not cooperating with me at all.
So it was time for my final weapon in the arsenal….warm water. Now I knew that will thin out the oil even more and I could hit the jackpot. So I replaced everything once again, got my oil in and….yet more disappointment. I am still a bit pissed as I was expecting to have maybe the best results using engine oil. But it seems that the oil that is usually less dense seems to give the best results. (engine oil has a density of aprox. 899kg/m3, sunflower oil aprox 920 kg/m3 and olive oil aprox 800 kg/m3) . The last remaining on my list is hydraulic oil. As its density of aprox 870kg/m3 is higher than that of olive oil, and considering the results I got till now, I do not expect much at all from it, but I will still try.
Somebody has suggested I should use massage oil or baby oil, but from the research I’ve done, they have a density of aprox 800 kg/m3 so I might just get very similar results like my first try. So I will leave these two for now.
So next to come – HYDRAULIC OIL. Till then just have a look bellow at few of the engine oil tries. I don’t really like them…(not for this theme anyway…) but still wanted to share them with you.
The density values above are approximated and depend on the brand of oil used as well. So some of them might work better for you than for me.
I’ve been taking shots for a while now of these intricate and beautiful nature’s patterns…and just now decided to make it a challenge, a small project .